Genji's Girl

Waz up home skittles.



So I have a lot of random things to talk about...first off, finals week is almost upon us.
I am SPAZZING out hardcore right now. I am currently trying to pass my math class, and I'm barely doing that. Much less juggling three other classes. I should be studying for several tests this week but...PROCRASTINATION ANYONE?



Next thing to talk about, its been decided that I'm not moving out of state right now, im going to try and finish up my scholarship first then move. Which means that I'll have to try and find a job in Alaska. Oh goodie. We (my other and myself) are talking about saving up and traveling down to Arizona this Christmas break. Dunno if it will happen yet.



So onto something a little more interesting, recently i've been trying new hairstyles to help with the boredom of pony tails and braids. So I tried some chibi sailor moon buns.

kawaii desu desu huh. I've been trying other styles too, but this was the only one I remembered to take a picture of.


Thats all for now

Hey look more poetic titles for my entries.
Anyways, on to the main topic.

I'm concerned that I wont be able to find a job. I realize that everyone is having this problem right now. But not everyone has social anxiety and a math disability. Where I live, there really isn't much to choose from, other than food service and a few other jobs like that. There are a few places that I would LOVE to work, but I'm not sure that they are even hiring or if I qualify. *heavy sigh*

I don't mean to unload all this on my blog, but recently I've felt really lost. In class I'm not able to get basic concepts and I have trouble keeping up. I think part of it is that I'm just not doing well and I'm really depressed all the time. I think the class I worry about the most is Math right now, I have a "D" right now, which is worrying me a lot.

Oh well...first world problems. I just have to survive three more weeks and then I can relax and not worry about school.



I've decided to set a few goals for me to accomplish over the summer, just to ensure that I'm not going to be a useless blob.

Renew my food-card
Actively look for a job, even if I don't find one...i'll not its not cuz I didn't try.
Go through all my stuff and weed out what I don't need or want any more...
Don't judge myself to harshly, and try to relax about things that would normally bother me.




Mkay so now that I've totally annoyed you by making this entry into a sob story and motivational poster...on to something a little more lighthearted. I've been wearing more lolita than I have in awhile. Although I'm still unhappy about my weight, I really want to try and look at everything with optimism. I wore a punk lolita cord on Monday and then wore my BTSSB cardigan to class today. I didn't take any pictures...cuz I forgot.




This was me on Easter //ihateholidays.jpg

Wow my title is so poetic and stuff.
So whats do I have to say in this mini vlog? Well I'm glad you asked...and if you didnt ask...well then bugger off.
Anyways My title isn't just poetic, but a really cool way of saying i'm trying to find the good in a bad situation. Things are rough right now, mostly financially, but also emotionally.



I've been trying to find the good things in life, mostly little things that make me happy.
Things like:

The current start of the new season of Game of Thrones.


The announcment that the new Black Dagger Brotherhood book is going be based on Qhinn and Blaylock. Its about FREAKIN' TIME!!!


And there is only 30 days left till The Avengers comes out in theaters.
which makes me exited because, in addition to the avengers...only a few days after is the last day of semester...!!



Well I think thats enough writing for today. Ive been on the computer writing two seperate papers all day. I'm worn out on the typing.

WOW! Two entries in one month, that's progress.

So what have I been up to in the few days weeks that I've been away? Oh just being broke and struggling through classes that I don't ever want to go to. This semester just isn't going well, and I don't know why... I've never had a semester this hard before.



So on to something less whiny and depressing...I got another Jane Mai shirt.
Now that makes two...







Also, my mom;s ex just spent two weeks in Thailand, and he brought me back an amazing little doodad...


I freakin' love it, its a squishy donut with sprinkles!



So today was pretty weird on campus...I had to play this game called "Frog Detective" in my Psychology class today. Also, this couple was making out in an empty classroom which I thought was really random. And Colton drove me home today and we swapped nerd stories.
I lead an unbelievably boring life. I really need to get my liscence and a car and a life. Ughlife sucks.
Tomorrow I have to take a math test, I kinda feel prepared, but not really. Curse you testing anxiety.

So it appears that I really suck at keeping up with a blog. What else is new. I had a livejournal for the longest time, but could never get around to making it a constant blog. Lets hope this blog is different .

Anyways,the current semester has been a roller-coaster of events. Both good and bad. The main thing is I am currently enjoying Spring Break, which is long overdue. It's been a strange couple of months. Nothing seems to want to work out for me lately. But that's the way of the world right now.

I have been making progress on Minecraft, I have a survival worlds that I kick butt at. I even installed a cheat mod all by myself . So I'm not sure if i am going to try and join a server but, their is plenty of time for that.



I recently watched a REALLY amazing new movie called Summer Wars. I didn't really know what to expect, but I am looking on Ebay to find a copy of this amazing movie. It's just the right amount of humor and suspense to make you really want to watch it over and over. I would highly recommend this movie.




So I currently installed a countdown clock on my Tumblr for The Avengers, and found out that in England I believe it was, they get an advanced screening. How is that even fairI'm not sure If i'll get to watch it in theaters or wait it out and buy the dvd but I WILL see it. It has Iron Man...which is one of my many fandoms.

I think thats all I want to write about tonight. I'm tired and have a really bad headache. I think I'm getting sick, damn it all.